a smile

can't you smile, a visual perception
without having it be a deception
scheming becomes your joy
though it makes us all your toy.
Your little play things, controlling the minds and plans
yes, I see where you stand.

yelling, screaming, proud with delectations
only to ruin other's expectations

a smile is a wonderful feat
seen in your eyes as only defeat
using it against us, each and every one

but I believe it is I that have won.

the one

It's all a guessing game. Your rules. My ridiculous set of insecurities that keep me locked into thinking someday you might actually be the one. The One. Capital T. Capital O. As in, there is only ONE. Right?

WRONG. There are millions!!

Ode to Gregg

I saw a man today, as I was walking to the pizza parlor. Old, small, barely 5-foot tall with a lot of spunk. He was walking with this wife, she was oddly faceless and walking slower, much slower, than the man.

He spoke out to me with a chuckle, in the heaviest New Zealand accent I had heard since stepping off the plane, “Boy you are a big lady. Twenty one maybe. Heh heh.”

Realizing that I was the only one around, as well as the tallest, I turned and looked at his face. Billliance, rosy, firm, old, knowledgeable, and eager.

“Maybe not twenty one, but definitely ……”, muttering something that was more than indiscernible. “Eh, well then good eh’ lady.”, tipping his hat in my direction.

I smiled, laughed, wished him a good eh’ and was off, never once looking at his wife.

Joy, willingness, passion, eagerness, intrigue.

Letter to Jason

B.
Beautiful, butterfly, breed, bastard, bothersome, boston, booz, bloated, ballet, bouncing, blithe, buttons, bugle, beastly, bidding, bottom, before, balloons, bubbles, breezy, banter, backyard, billow, briquettes, boisterous, broad, blonde, backbone, basic, bland, bitter, beguiling, bewitching, blizzard, blaphemous, bleeding, bonded, blistering, brrrr, bright, bounding, blue, blessed, bend, ballast, balance