... when over 80 percent of it is loosely based in truth.
... when it ends with the words, "I love you so much Baby."
... when it doesn't seem to harm the person you use it on, directly.
... when more than five people agree it's the truth
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Giving them a chance
I've come to the understanding that I am single because of me.
Not him. Not my parents. Not because of my ex-best-friend's neighbor. Me.
In looking at my perspective, I've seen myself settled into a very synical attitude. I assume all men lie. Yep. No doubt in my mind. They make up little lies to make themselves "think" they are in control. Stupid. Just stupid.
Stupid because I can SEE them lying. Clear as day. And because they can't face the ugly truth in themselves, they hide it. This then forces me to lie about it, which I see as simply living a facade-like life. I want to live. The good. The bad. I want to live it as God intended. It pisses me off my relationships restrict me. To the core, pisses me off.
Then I see the coward. CLICK. My light burning for him just went off. There isn't any bigger turn off for me. The relation ship sinks. We attempt to mend it and "try harder", but it's really too late. I have never, ever fixed a sunken ship. Never.
And I wonder, is it me? Maybe they aren't lying, in a weird sort of way. Maybe, just maybe, they are telling the truth.... from their perspective.... how they see it.
Men are so non-verbal. And I have learned through the years men will SHOW you what they think and feel. They won't tell you. They "tell" you things they are trained to say, to get what they want. Men will say anything to get what they want, because it doesn't mean anything to them. Numb to what comes out of their mouths.
Next installment with be investigating how deep my callousness runs. >>
Not him. Not my parents. Not because of my ex-best-friend's neighbor. Me.
In looking at my perspective, I've seen myself settled into a very synical attitude. I assume all men lie. Yep. No doubt in my mind. They make up little lies to make themselves "think" they are in control. Stupid. Just stupid.
Stupid because I can SEE them lying. Clear as day. And because they can't face the ugly truth in themselves, they hide it. This then forces me to lie about it, which I see as simply living a facade-like life. I want to live. The good. The bad. I want to live it as God intended. It pisses me off my relationships restrict me. To the core, pisses me off.
Then I see the coward. CLICK. My light burning for him just went off. There isn't any bigger turn off for me. The relation ship sinks. We attempt to mend it and "try harder", but it's really too late. I have never, ever fixed a sunken ship. Never.
And I wonder, is it me? Maybe they aren't lying, in a weird sort of way. Maybe, just maybe, they are telling the truth.... from their perspective.... how they see it.
Men are so non-verbal. And I have learned through the years men will SHOW you what they think and feel. They won't tell you. They "tell" you things they are trained to say, to get what they want. Men will say anything to get what they want, because it doesn't mean anything to them. Numb to what comes out of their mouths.
Next installment with be investigating how deep my callousness runs. >>
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